You live in fear and despair before the nothingness of the world!

"As Block puts it, without proof of God’s existence, the idea of God is nothing more than suffering — a suffering that people would be better to do without. The idea of God, as Block sees it, is a reminder to you that you live in fear and despair before the nothingness of the world. As he puts it, “Why can’t I kill God within me? Why does he live on in this painful and humiliating way even though I curse him and want to tear him out of my heart? I want knowledge, not faith. . . . I want God to stretch out his hand toward me, reveal himself to me.”"